Maggie's Musings

That which does not kill us Well, I thought my inner Pollyanna had finally met her match. My husband has had a series of physical and medical issues lately and I have been responsible for helping him out around the house and with the snow shoveling so he did not lift anything that weighted more than 15 pounds for about two months now. This meant that I would need to do any shoveling of our beloved stairs going up to our house or the large driveway we have so we could drive our cars. Now on a normal year this would be daunting but this year decided to be a challenging year for all of us. A year for us to face our fears head on and determine if we were going to stay victorious or we were going to run for cover, ducking our heads under the blankets until the scary darkness left and sunshine returned. At least that is how it felt to me.  I have had numerous years that have challenged me. Numerous opportunities to face my fears and stay victorious and I was feeling very much up for

The question that keeps popping up in my head is, Victim or Victorious? This was coming through as I keep pushing against a charge that was put on my credit card for a purchase I thought I wanted to make but immediately after the purchase (online) decided “no”  I choose to wait until another time to purchase that item.   The issue arose when the company I was purchasing the product from was not listening to my pleas to cancel the purchase and instead keep using very good sales techniques to help me see the purchase was timely. needed and in fact so good what I really wanted was to increase my purchase so I would have more.  Hum, what happened then? I called again and tried speaking to someone else about the purchase who also either tried to placate me or talk me into something in addition to ... This went on one more time where I actually lost my composure and talked loudly just in case the people were actually hard of hearing instead of trained not to hear.  And then it hit m