Maggie's Musings

I have a confession to make. I work as an intuitive energy healer and I have Crohn's Disease. It has taken me years to admit to myself that although I do get great results and very often am able to be prescription drug free there are times I do need to take medicine to keep my body in good working condition. I believe I am learning how to integrate working with the Western medical professionals as well as my own intuitive guidance to build and maintain a healthy body, a sound mind and clear energy centers. Some times when I finally do admit I need help though it feels like a failure and that is something I want to release and let go of. It isn't a failure to admit you need others at times. It is a positive step to realize you are in harmony with the Universe and in its infinite intelligence there are other light beings just as caring who sincerely want to help me achieve a healthy and normal balance within my body. The frustration is the way my doctors are trained the medicines

07/14/10 2:05am Tonight I am unable to sleep. I find myself going over in my mind discussions with God. Yes, I am admitting I talk to God, or the energy I imagine is the Divine Being. I imagine this because the energy, intelligence I converse with is so loving, compassionate and wise. Seems to know all about me, the life I have lived and the things that plague me. Tonight I am sad. Very sad. People, mankind has me sad. I saw my grandchildren tonight and I realized even though they are young they have learned how to cloak themselves in order to protect themselves and their feelings, emotions. My grandson is almost autistic at times but I know it is an act. An act to allow himself the luxury of not being in pain. He has such depth of emotions it hurts and that is something I know, my children know and perhaps for the first time I realize most if not all of us are feeling. That is why we take so many drugs to escape the pain of our thoughts and emotions. And by burying our emotions we