Victim to Victorious

The question that keeps popping up in my head is, Victim or Victorious? This was coming through as I keep pushing against a charge that was put on my credit card for a purchase I thought I wanted to make but immediately after the purchase (online) decided “no”  I choose to wait until another time to purchase that item.  

The issue arose when the company I was purchasing the product from was not listening to my pleas to cancel the purchase and instead keep using very good sales techniques to help me see the purchase was timely. needed and in fact so good what I really wanted was to increase my purchase so I would have more. 

Hum, what happened then? I called again and tried speaking to someone else about the purchase who also either tried to placate me or talk me into something in addition to ... This went on one more time where I actually lost my composure and talked loudly just in case the people were actually hard of hearing instead of trained not to hear. 

And then it hit me. That aha moment in time I look for with clients. When I realized instead of flowing with what I wanted I had become involved in what they wanted and was pushing against their energy so much it made me mad. And the question came through did I want to be a victim or victorious? The victim gets involved with the struggle and pushes against. The victorious person uses their calm energy to see the issue resolved in a peaceful manner. 

After thinking about this for about one minute or less I chose victorious. I did a  visualization where I called up and talked to a calm person in a calm manner and they  understood my concern and issued me a full refund. After my work with the visualization I ate lunch, refocused on other things and then calmly called one more time. I am happy to report I did get someone on the phone who listened, reviewed all the notes on the calls and then calmly stated she would reverse the charges, said this would not be a problem and if I ever changed my mind again and wanted to purchase the item she hoped I would pick their company for the sale. 

So right now I feel victorious and grateful I listened to my intuition and life’s aha moment. 

Lighten Up!

A common theme for me in this life is to "lighten up". While I think I am light and full of love I do know my thoughts can be heavy with past memories and thoughts. As I get more clear with myself of how I wish to share my time on this Earth and the work I want to do it has become important to me to use each day fully. Be fully present with each activity I do and with each person I interact with and allow the past thoughts and images to have their own time each day.

By giving my past an actual time each day to be acknowledged and understood I have freed up my awareness of Now to become an alive entity. My Now has become an energy pattern that feels fresh, clean and full of possibilities.

For too long I have been victimized by the Darkness that surrounded me as a young child. I have run from it. I have hid from it. I have pushed against it. I have studied and worked with numerous alternative healing activities in my hope this would allow the Darkness to leave me so I don't have to think about it or be controlled by it anymore.

When working on an issue or memory I find suddenly there is a clearing. Usually accompanied by a shift within my thoughts and beliefs. An aha moment when some thought, or memory or image becomes absorbed into my Energy field and accepted as part of me. At that point another layer of healing has taken place. At that point I can think about that issue or memory that used to haunt me like a shadow and know I have accepted that piece of me. Made peace with it. Understood that part had a place within my personal timeline and has helped me grow. It no longer has an abnormal heat or intensity about it. It has been merged into my consciousness and become a teaching moment.

Today I know when I get that aha moment with a client and they are able to accept and process another layer of healing. I realize now that each time those moments happen for me or for someone I am helping it helps me lighten up and as I lighten up so does my world.

I understand now this is why I will continue to learn, teach and help myself and the people in my life continue to lighten up. Together we can make a difference within our own personal growth of understanding and healing while also making a positive contribution to this ever expanding group consciousness and knowledge of how our thoughts, memories and feelings contribute to our physical health and our energetic health.

I wish us all many aha moments each day so we can continue to heal and grow our inner light allowing our physical and energy being to lighten up too!

What it means to me to be called a Psychic

It was with tremendous trepidation after years of internal dialog that I chose to come out and use the word Psychic as a description of my work and natural abilities. The word Psychic has enormous energy as an archetype. Many people have a lot of preconceived ideas of what it means and it has a vibration of power I have fled from for most of my life. Why would anyone willingly come out in the open and tell people they have an ability that scares some people, has been judged so harshly through the centuries as being evil or doesn’t even exist as has been declared by other groups? I felt I would be putting  myself on trial to be judged. That is what I feel from some people a judgement of “so you believe you are better than me, or know more than I do.” To which I would like to say, “no I don’t”. I am a channel, a facilitator, a human instrument who allows a higher energy or higher intelligence to use me to reach out and help my fellow human beings and myself heal on some level. In a good session that is what happens no matter what we call the session we are about to embark on. I have learned how to move out of the way (ie take my ego out) and allow the knowledge or energy or process to be played out with my physical body being the instrument. 

l have chosen to read, study and absorb lots of ways other people are working with energy in an attempt to ensure I am as clear and knowledgable a Psychic channel as possible. Deep inside me I too would like to know how how I “know” things. I successfully teach people how to open up to their other senses, (also known as ESP, psychic abilities, intuitive senses, you place your term here) and yet I can not always explain how I know what I ”know”. Still I am choosing to not run away from this ability or label any longer. 

I need to remember though, two people can hold a conversation about anything on any subject and they will look at it differently, remember it differently and take away things differently. That is why I always go up to my Source of Light within the Akasha and say a prayer that the information I am about to receive and share be of the highest intention for good for the person I am working with. I also ask that the information that is shared be of value and that they are able to receive and hear it in a way that will provide comfort, help and healing. My goal is for my client to feel a deeper sense of understanding regarding the issue, relationship, or concern that prompted them to contact me for a session. Many times if we are working on some deep beliefs that need to be shifted or understood from a different level the client can be slightly disoriented and will need to be grounded before the session ends. Working with energy does affect your mind and body in very real and interesting ways. I work to help my clients understand how to ground and protect themselves so they can move forward with new tools on how to be safe as they expand their conscious understanding of who they are. As a Psychic channel it is my responsibility to clear from each session, release the connection and know within my own heart and soul I offered the highest counsel I could connect with. 

So if you have strong thoughts and ideas around the word Psychic (as I did) whether good or bad I invite you to look within and see what your own higher wisdom is sharing with you and please remember most of us are doing this work with the intention of helping. We have the same passion to help and heal as a musician who must work with sound and harmony, an artist who needs to be creative or a scientist who longs to discover how things fit together. It is in our soul DNA. A Psychic needs to work with the Universal Light and Energy. 

There are people who claim to have a strong psychic ability who are really out to only make money and prey on people who are looking for help, clarity or guidance. This is true of any profession. If the knowledge and sharing we find on the internet can help us understand anything at all, I believe it should be unscrupulous people exist in all walks of life performing all kinds of jobs. The internet does also remind us there are wonderful, loving people found in all walks of life performing all kinds of jobs. So if you are seeking guidance, clarity or help from a Psychic or any healing professional I hope you take the time to “tune in” to your own intuitive sense and “see” if this person feels right to you.

I chose to work as a Psychic and allow myself to be used as a channel for light, love and Spiritual guidance. I acknowledge all people are connected in some way to their Divine energy.  I know there are people looking for a way to connect even deeper on a conscious level. I understand this desire to connect deeper is a need I can fill through my work as a Psychic and Spiritual Counselor. This knowledge and understanding is the way I chose to live my life. 

Thank you dear Source for this amazing view of life, energy and the connection of all things. Thank you also for helping me to heal my heart and be able to accept I am a Psychic. 

Coming into the Light

I am a Psychic and I was born with the ability to tune into a world that was unseen by my friends and family. I have always channeled information from my guides and teachers. When I was young this information would pop out of my mouth and when asked where I heard it or learned it I could not tell anyone. I really did not know other than my unseen friends might have shared it. I haven’t always used this ability. I consciously turned it off when I was 10. My mother had been murdered and I was overwhelmed by the dark energies that surrounded me and wanted to hide so the Darkness could not find me or my family. I spend many, many years successfully in hiding (or so I thought) until the time came for me to wake up. I started to consciously call back the energy and my unseen friends around the turn of the new century and now I am happy to report they are with me when I need guidance or I want to receive guidance for others. I am now a conscious channel which is a person who is aware of the information that is being shared although I am able to move my thoughts and opinions out of the way of the transmission (most of the time) and allow the energy to speak through me using either my voice or my hands as I speak or write these communications. 

Still even working with my friends and guides it is a new experience for me to be so open about my ability to channel Light and Love. I am ever aware of the Darkness that is the opposite vibration of the Light I channel but I am no longer fearful of this energy force. I know within my heart and mind I am protected by this Light vibration and I have nothing to fear. It is with Love that I have chosen to open up and publicly speak out on the subject of energy, vibration, Love, Light and of course the Darkness and Shadows. So as I continue on this path of transformation we call our Life I will write more on these subjects. I hope you join me as the Crystal Council of Light beings work with me to channel information that will help us as we each ascend and expand our conscious understanding of who we really are.

Yeah for 2012!!

As I start this new year I can not help but be influenced by all the amazing things I have heard, read or imagined would happen within the year 2012. I never did think civilization as we know it would end and be destroyed like it was during Atlantis or Lemuria. In those days when the massive earth changes destroyed the land civilization was lost. Today we see the effects and our heart goes out to the people within those nations but life goes on and our world continues. 

When I went into the Akashic Records and asked for guidance on the meaning of this 2012 vibration this is the message I received;

The Earth is shown to me as a hologram. Inside the Earth are multiple changes taking place that will have an effect on land masses and where water is located within the surface of the Earth. There are areas that will be shifting and changing and because of the additional strain on the Earth and it’s atmosphere due to the way we as people are using and abusing the Earth’s resources some of our populated areas are becoming uninhabitable. A quickening to what has already been occurring. In addition (and I think very exciting) the human consciousness is opening up and our group consciousness is expanding to an understanding of how we are connected to each other and all living things including this beloved Earth. It is not a time for Armageddon, that has been over done in our  movies but it is a time when people are being pushed to re think, re prioritize and re plan their lives and the future they are creating. 

Working with the Akasha and learning how to access and interpret information within the Akashic Records can be very helpful for the individual and for mankind. The Akasha is a living vibration and a recording of all living things, events, encounters. Even those that do not include Earth or Earthlings. Yes, there it is. I believe in a Universal Intelligence and I also believe this is not the only planet within the entire Universe that supports intelligent life.  I have worked within the higher energy and higher consciousness of the Universe for most of my life. I am comfortable knowing there is really no time or space separation. What we know as a day, month, year is something we as humans have agreed to. I am comfortable knowing our past lives or incarnations not only exist they sometimes bleed into this one in the form of energy blocks, people we are instantly connected to, places we know but have never physically visited. 

I am constantly working with my own life to understand the lessons and contracts I have with other people and I love to help people think beyond their normal senses to see the unseen universe that exists and encompasses us all. So I am happy to learn 2012 signals a newer conscious connection within mankind and our group consciousness is expanding to accept as normal the use of our extra sensory perceptions or psychic and intuitive abilities. I am happy to be alive and teaching such concepts. Bring it on. I have waited many years for this moment. A time when I do not feel like an alien creature within my civilization because of my knowledge and beliefs but a teacher who can help others develop their natural and normal ESP. 

Yeah for this bright and shiny new year! 

The winds of change

So the winds of change continue to roar through the Earth’s energy grid. Whatever your leanings and opinions on the political realm it is my hope we all understand that everyone and everything within this wonderful Universe is connected. When people are struggling it affects all of us. When people are prosperous that also affects all of us. We are one big happy group of energy. We are just at different vibrations and levels of thought and beliefs. But think on this, we all desire happiness, peace, love, security. The difference might be do you feel everyone is deserving of these gifts from the Universal Source Energy. If your answer is no, then I recommend you take a moment to determine why you are not deserving. For if we are all connected and all a part of the same Source Energy and you would deny blessings towards another you are really denying them for yourself. Perhaps this is a new way of viewing the world for you. If so, I would recommend you continue on the path towards building your Center of Light however you are drawn to do that and remember Darkness does not exist within Light.


In keeping with my focus to help myself and those around me grow a Center within ourselves to house our Light and Connection to the Universal Source Energy or God I will continue to offer my services and understanding of how Consciously Creating a life of abundance and wellbeing can move your life forward which will then help the Whole of the Earth’s Consciousness grow lighter and continue on its evolution towards the development of our new consciousness within the Earth’s energy grid.

What now?

Well the last few months have been very strange for me. I was going to share my path towards healing this latest Crohn's flare. My liver was involved this time and I was nervous about that. The good news is I was able to get my liver into balance and health within 2 weeks. It was so fast it took me awhile to process. Then I realized I am in balance. I know what that feels like. I know how to support myself and my emotions so I stay in balance. So then the question becomes why did I go out of balance? That question deserved some thought. So here is what I came up with. Those of us who work with Energy and work with the Universal Source or God are good at clearing and cleansing, connecting to the light. So good sometimes that we forget or discount the importance of clearing and cleansing after each client or each day. I had been working with a few people who had liver issues. I must have taken some of their issues and internalized them. I know I was thinking about Cancer and how I would feel if someone had diagnosed me with it. When I realized I had internalized this so much I had actually manifested liver issues, it was a wake up call.

We are manifesting our thoughts very quickly these days. My thoughts seems to materialized before my eyes. I need to do a check in every day and each night to purge and cleanse thoughts and ideas of lack, disease and being out of sync with life. I needed to go back to basics and do the chakra clearing and cleansing. So that is what I did. My doctor was impressed that the liver went back into balance so quickly but she also has worked with me through a couple of flares now and said the liver can regenerate faster than other organs. We both smiled.

The intestinal issues of Crohn's will flare from time to time. Usually when I am feeling out of touch with my children and my sense of home. It is very important to me to ground, clear and cleanse. It is once again a morning routine. I am certain there will be times again when I become complacent and ease up on my own Energy work but for now I am once again checking my thoughts for positive images of the future, knowing life is abundant and full of joyous opportunities. For now, this is enough and I am once again in balance.

Confessions of an intuitive energy healer

I have a confession to make. I work as an intuitive energy healer and I have Crohn's Disease. It has taken me years to admit to myself that although I do get great results and very often am able to be prescription drug free there are times I do need to take medicine to keep my body in good working condition. I believe I am learning how to integrate working with the Western medical professionals as well as my own intuitive guidance to build and maintain a healthy body, a sound mind and clear energy centers. Some times when I finally do admit I need help though it feels like a failure and that is something I want to release and let go of. It isn't a failure to admit you need others at times. It is a positive step to realize you are in harmony with the Universe and in its infinite intelligence there are other light beings just as caring who sincerely want to help me achieve a healthy and normal balance within my body. The frustration is the way my doctors are trained the medicines are hard on the body and mind and so I need to work even harder to focus, meditate and visualize wellbeing and bring my mind and energy centers into alignment.


So I go back to the basics the good news and how far I have progressed to help my mind focus on what is possible. I have had this disease for over 25 years and yet I have never needed surgery. By the time they diagnosed my primary disease (as they call it) I was too sick to support being cut open and there was my saving grace. I knew if they could just tell me where in my body the illness was I could help myself heal that wound on all levels and move on with life. Which I did and continue to do from time to time. But the scientific portion of my mind wants to know why isn't this healed on a permanent never to return again basis? And therein lays the source of fascination that keeps me going learning and gathering information that has been collected by others. Learning from my own guides and angels. Learning from my higher self.

Right now I am two weeks into taking the only medicine that my body will accept without too many side effects although I do have some from this drug. The drug is Prednisone. It has very known issues with interacting with the body and yet it is the only one that helps me heal the inflammation within my intestinal walls. As I go forward with the actions my body needs rights now I do plan to share this process within this blog. It is my desire and hope I am able to give others hope that they too can mend, live active and fulfilled lives and still have a chronic disease whatever that manifests itself to be.

Conversations with God

07/14/10 2:05am


Tonight I am unable to sleep. I find myself going over in my mind discussions with God. Yes, I am admitting I talk to God, or the energy I imagine is the Divine Being. I imagine this because the energy, intelligence I converse with is so loving, compassionate and wise. Seems to know all about me, the life I have lived and the things that plague me. Tonight I am sad. Very sad. People, mankind has me sad. I saw my grandchildren tonight and I realized even though they are young they have learned how to cloak themselves in order to protect themselves and their feelings, emotions. My grandson is almost autistic at times but I know it is an act. An act to allow himself the luxury of not being in pain. He has such depth of emotions it hurts and that is something I know, my children know and perhaps for the first time I realize most if not all of us are feeling. That is why we take so many drugs to escape the pain of our thoughts and emotions. And by burying our emotions we are killing ourselves. Some people truly do get off on causing others pain but that is also a cry for help. A cry to not feel. Like the bully who terrorizes others in order to not be the weak one who is terrorized.

And what does that say about our species, about mankind? How did we get into such a state? Where is the lightness of spirit, the immense love I feel from the God energy? Why is this what we have created for ourselves? How did this happen? When did this happen?

We say these are enlightened times. We are thankful we don't live in the dark ages but to me, these are the dark ages. People were never so openly in despair. Even when there were fewer things, maybe because there were fewer distractions we were closer to our family, our community, we knew we were part of one world. When did we become a species of isolation, hatred of people who are not like us? Look like us, act like us or think the way we do or you are the enemy. I realize not everyone is acting out the pain in their hearts and minds but it certainly appears to be a good portion of the world.

Where is the light. The love of our fellow man? Where is our compassion for each other? How did the darkness take over so much of the thoughts within our group consciousness and when will we wake up and take back the light and vanquish the Beast. I am beginning to think the Devil is a real energy. I know where there is light there is darkness. I understand the scientific principle of that theory but how did the Devil get such a stronghold on the world and how God, do we vanquish him from our group consciousness and bring your love, compassion and light into the forefront again? I am asking a serious question and I really do expect an answer.

Response

It will happen one mind at a time. One voice at a time. With all beings in harmony with the energy and vibrations within their souls. It is so easy and simple people just can not except the answer and so we need to say it, send it and share this message as many ways as possible. Look inward. See your own light. See your own Divinity. Realize you are a child of the universe as are all things. As are all things. This wondrous Divine love, compassion and guidance you receive is here for all to receive, feel and experience. It starts with one and it is only one who can share this. It is only each one. You know me and you are sensitive to my vibration. So do all living things. But some are in pain. Some are bitter. Some have been so hurt and confused they can not except that they have control, each one has control. Each one has this Divine power. So they turn to a more obvious power. The lower vibration, the darkness, my brother. He offers power, calming feeling of control. Take control over others before they take control over you. You and I know that is not real power or real control but to a hurt and bitter heart it just may be. And we, those of us who do emanate light, love and compassion, we will carry them and their burden until they too find light, love and compassion for themselves. Then and only then can they find compassion, love and light for others. It will happen. Believe. It will happen. Light trumps darkness. Love is the highest vibration within this universe. Believe and follow me. Out of the valley of the shadow of death let us go now into the light.

Energy and Our Belief System

Our subconscious mind controls what is created in our lives.  It is through our belief systems that we create our own reality. Learning how to be more conscious allows you to co create your reality so you are attracting new scenarios and situations and bringing greater opportunities into your life. 

This is achieved through changing – literally re-writing – your feelings and beliefs on a cellular level.

The subconscious levels of the mind stores and collects our beliefs. It is the memories and beliefs held by the subconscious mind that literally dictate, dominate and control all areas of life, co creating everything that is manifested in our realities. These stored beliefs and thought patterns hinder and block us from living our highest potential in perfect health and happiness living life fully, "joy" fully in all areas of our lives.

It is conscious co creation that will help people create joyous lives. When your heart and mind are in agreement you can choose to create that great love, happiness, health, and wealth. When the belief system is contrary to these desires the results created in your reality are contrary as well.  The "Law of Attraction" confirms, "what I think or believe conscious or unconsciously, I will indeed create".  Although this is not new information, it needs to be brought to our level of awareness in a way in which we can comprehend and fully understand.

There are clear scientific studies that state how the mind, body and spirit are all interconnected. The neurons in our brain act as messenger signals. The very moment a negative thought enters our mind our bodies respond through the energy field created around that thought form.  Results have shown that in that instant our vitality or energy level is decreased.  When our energy levels are decreased, our immune system becomes weakened, thereby allowing the potential of an illness to be created. We have the power to heal the emotional, spiritual and mental state of mind that have been created by these thought forms. We also have the power to heal the physical body.

There are many amazing success stories for health, wealth, and perfect loving partnerships. For instance have you ever wondered how so many people have had illnesses that seem to miraculously heal themself? How did they do that? It began with the belief that they could. They knew they could! This is also how you can want and desire love, pray for that perfect love relationship, go through years of therapy to heal certain areas of your life, follow detailed instructions of various gurus, read countless books on spiritual growth and self empowerment and still not have that perfect love and perfect health you so desire.

Great Scientists, incredible inspirational and motivational speakers, teach us that it is our deepest, innermost beliefs and the way we perceive ourselves to be, locked on the subconscious levels that shape and create our realities. It is a validated and proven fact by science which confirms: our unconscious beliefs create our reality - Quantum Physics – Quantum Mechanics, the "Field of Thought" theory.  What we think and believe, will become our reality. "Our thoughts are energy, energy creates matter, matter creates realities". We are all electromagnetic beings, having an electric energy field that runs within, through, and around our entire human body. This energy contains information, messages and thoughts. Once this energy system has carried an emotion, feeling, or thought for a long time, it has assisted in creating and bringing it to reality. 

In a very simplified way of understanding energy, think of it as oxygen.  It is oxygen that is running through our entire bodies.  Without it we would not be alive.  Oxygen is made up of pure energy.  It holds no other matter in any form, yet it functions within the human body to maintain our vital life force.  There is no verbal language created. Therefore we can say that energy in and of itself communicates through an energy language. What I believe, I will create by the very fact of this energy force that has been created by the thought process.  This is one of the reasons why our deepest fears become our reality.

In any aspect of your life where you are not being all you can be, learning how to become more conscious of your thoughts, feelings and emotions, empowers you to co create a life you love and assists you in loving the life you live!

Begin Again

This blog is being created to help me share my thoughts about the mystical process of co creating my life with the Divine. I am so very grateful for the clarity I have received and the inspirational prompting my guides and angels share with me. 


When I started the journey of being more consciously aware of the co creation process, my life took some turns I did not expect. What I had yet to learn was the true depth of co creation is to create without predetermined ideas of how the outcome would come about. This might sound contradictory but what I mean is, I am continually learning to identify things that bring me joy and that I would like to have within my life. Hold those thoughts in my mind. Move towards the joy and look for the sign posts that are always given to me on where my well being is flowing. Where the next step in my process lies. There are plenty of boulders I put in place to slow this process down but I am learning how to sense when I am about to create one and eliminate it from my mind before it manifests in this physical plane of existence. I am becoming more clear on how I am formulating my life in the spiritual realm and then having it come into creation. 


We all do this on an unconscious level but the time has come for us to open up and become more conscious of the process of physical manifestation so we can facilitate the process of growth and expansion more quickly towards creating a peaceful and balanced world. The benefits to the Earth and to mankind are undeniable. We can no longer sustain the dark thoughts of separateness. Of one person being more important than another. Of one life being more important than another. The social order we have created is falling apart and it is time for a new life, a new understanding of who we are and how our world is created to become clear to the majority and not just to the people who had access to this knowledge and power yet chose not to share it or perhaps did not know how to share the knowledge. Many teachers and masters live among us and are sharing their wisdom and understanding. Whoever you are if you feel the desire to awaken to creating your life on a more conscious level, there is now a teacher available to help you learn the process in a way your mind is able to absorb. I believe this with all my heart.

So let's go forward learning, sharing, growing and expanding. I promise to share my growth and knowledge within this blog. If you feel you could learn from me how to open up and become more conscious of the co creation process within your life please contact me. My information on classes and sessions I facilitate and teach are located within my website, www.Ctr4Light.com.

I wish us all peace, love and a light spirit as we grow and expand with this beautiful planet Earth.